Well, today i turned thirty... but don't worry about me changing or anything... i'm still the same guy who manages to spill food and beverages on his clothes as if it were a ritual... today, in fact, i have the grease of taco meat adorning my bright white "theTRu. Polo Shirt"... some things won't ever change... anyway, i'm claiming a little bit of "me" time today to actually update this here blog... i have so many things that i'd like to write... if my mind were a bladder, i would seriously need some Depends... but i don't think that any of them will reasonably make it to the screen today... i'd like to say that it will be soon, but i don't like to not keep my word... (how's that for a double negative?)... i must be tired... and old... yes... probably both... feel free to make fun of my age today or any day beyond today... i'm good... i've come to grips with age and it doesn't bother me... while you're down there commenting, why don't i go ahead and mention a few topics that i'm tossing around and you can weigh in on which i should make an effort to discuss first... (assuming of course that they make sense... i do love to be slightly cryptic)... 1. My Enemies are Men Like Me That's enough... i'm approaching another milestone as well, but more on that later on this month... for now... here's something... The Blockhead Theory You can learn a lot about kids if you watch them playing with blocks... i've unscientifically narrowed people down into four catagories based on their block behavior... first, there are the people who totally ignore the blocks... these people lack initiative and are afraid to take risks... destined to never accomplish anything in life... second, there are those who aimlessly play with the blocks, sometimes stacking, sometimes just banging them together... these people lack direction and have no idea what to do with their lives... again, they're not likely to accomplish anything with their lives, but moreso than group one... the third group is the builders... yeah, these folks are self-starters and they are one of the groups who shape the world we live in... there are of course varying degrees of builders in the world, but i'll get back to that in a second... the fourth group... they're generally called jerks or worse, but they're the group that doesn't build and doesn't ignore... they sit around and wait for others to build so that they can run through and knock the tower down... these people also shape the world, but they don't really accomplish anything except empty feelings of significance... anyway, back to group three... i'd like to think that i fall into this group... but as i said, there are varying degrees of builders... there are the builders that can go from start to finish quickly, hastily, recklessly, whatever... those who are more concerned with getting something accomplished, getting credit and getting out of Dodge before it all crashes down... and then there are builders who start building but never quite finish anything... all this potential and nothing to really show for it... another subgroup of group three is the group that build things up only simply for the joy of building... they don't necessarily care about getting credit or sticking around and keeping things going... they just enjoy building... these are the shapers of the world whose names you'll never know... the glue that holds society together, keeps things progressing simply because they can... and then the final group (simply because i can't think of any more)... is made up of builders who build because they want to have something to knock down... that's right... it's kind of a hybrid between groups three and four... they have the destructive tendancies but they lack the mean-spiritedness that it takes to destroy others... therefore they are self-destructive... for kicks... personally i think i'm somewhat of a hybrid of the hybrid and the glue... i'd like to lose my self-destructive tendancies, but i don't think i'm there yet... it's too much of a thrill to watch it all tumble down... as Bradley Hathaway says... i like to "burn it down and walk away"... i see this in many aspects of my life... and i'm not quite sure what the ideal is... what goals should i have as a builder of blocks?... if you're interested, just know that i have some very lofty goals that i've set in the last few days and weeks and i think many of them are not goals you would expect me to have... really though, as i look at my life... if i never accomplish another thing, i will be happy knowing that i've helped to add two of the most beautiful boys ever to this world and i can help shape them into men that will shape the world around them for good... (i say that at the risk of making them sound like comic book superheroes)... i'm not sure why i shared all of this, but i did... so now it's your job to figure out what to do with it... currently listening to: The Elms - The Chess Hotel!!! keeping an eye on... peace... love... bdg... |
20 April, 2006
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